waiting on the restoration of my marriage

GOD's child · Newbie Joined: 21 Oct 2007 Posts: 8

Please pray for my husband to come back to me, that he will stop this divorce. Sad

Elligirl · Full Member Joined: 28 Dec 2007 Posts: 120

I am sorry I did not see your post sooner. I am praying for you today.

Kathy

GOD's child · Newbie Joined: 21 Oct 2007 Posts: 8

Thank you for your prayers and support. I am still standing, I appreciate your prayers more than you can imagine,

secured · Full Member Joined: 30 Jan 2008 Posts: 113

(((((God's child)))))

I have lifted you up in prayer today, too. May God open your H's eyes. I'm afraid I haven't read all the posts on here. I just started on this wonderful site myself in Jan. I have prayed also for you to have God's amazing peace. My heart goes out to you, dear sister. May you feel the prayers coming your way in abundance. Take care of yourself.

-RJ-

secured · Full Member Joined: 30 Jan 2008 Posts: 113

Elligirl ((Kathy))

How are you doing these days? Hope all is well.

-RJ-

GOD's child · Newbie Joined: 21 Oct 2007 Posts: 8

I just want to say thank you so much for your prayers, and encouragement. As I was reading your prayer, my eyes filled with tears of hope, and I want to say thank you because I was losing hope.
God bless you
Carol

secured · Full Member Joined: 30 Jan 2008 Posts: 113

Dearest Carol,

Never give up hope. Sometimes that is all we have. We do not often understand why we are in the situation we find ourselves in. We just need to remember that God is there. You are not alone.

Like one of the ladies reminded us that God is a gentleman, He will not intrude. We have to ask Him to help us. I have found such peace and comfort from everyone here on this forum. It's freeing. No one judges you or your situation. I will not talk about this with anyone I know personally because I do not want their pity. (Even though I have such caring and loving friends, who would be so hurt that I have not turned to them for comfort and understanding) They just would not be able to fully understand the levels of pain as perhaps a person who has experienced this would.

Be good to yourself.
-RJ-

GOD's child · Newbie Joined: 21 Oct 2007 Posts: 8

RJ
Thank you again for your kind and encouraging words.
I do not feel anyone would judge me, However I do find that not alot of people can understand what I am going through. These past two years I have been through so many emotions, And I can say I have learned alot about God and myself.
GOD bless you for your support.
Carol

secured · Full Member Joined: 30 Jan 2008 Posts: 113

Carol,

I can definitely relate to having gone through so many different emotions. Still am some of the time. It's been 19 months and since then I've been living in a topsy-turvy world. I will say that things are better overall right now. That's only because God is at the helm of our marriage. Absolutely could not be where I am in all of this without Him. There were days that all I could do was hang on tight to His word.

Just remember, you are not alone. There are so many here who have hurts too. Different reasons perhaps, but still hurting.

God Bless
-RJ-

secured · Full Member Joined: 30 Jan 2008 Posts: 113

Carol,
I just read your post where you explained your situation. Has he just recently filed for divorce? I gather your children now know of the goings on. I myself have been married over 30 years. I understand about a marriage being a sham. My husband led a double life for most of our marriage. I found out because I recently discovered I had a STD in 06. Apparently, you can have this virus for years but it can raise it's ugly head when you have alot of stress happen in your life. The stress was not due to my H, it was because my precious Dad had passed away from lung cancer. This happened in Aug.2004. Two years (TO THE EXACT DAY)is when I found out about all my husband had been doing and had done up to that day. (Even including his incident on the day I'd had my biopsy).

I know our situations are not the same, but our pain is though. I understand feeling hopeless. I understand the not understanding why this is happening. I know the feelings of insecurity, anger, the injustice of it all, the "Why, Lord?", the being numb, and yet hurting so badly, the stabbing pains in the heart region, the horrible nightmares. The list goes on.

BUT, I also know that my Lord is with me through all of this. He has given me a strength beyond my understanding. I simply marvel that I am a sane, calm, peaceful woman. I do still have moments when negatives thoughts do assail my mind. But I am getting better at replacing those quicker with postive ones.

I pray for His peace, His strength, and for sanity of the mind and spirit for you. He will be there for you no matter what happens. I know I really do not need to remind you of that. It's just that it can be so scary not knowing what the future holds. In my case, it's has my H really changed after all these years? I know I have to leave him in God's hands. I have to believe He will take care of me no matter what my H. does with his life. I am accountable only for my own.

Take care, dear sister in Christ. Know that we are all praying earnestly for you and your husband.

-RJ-

GOD's child · Newbie Joined: 21 Oct 2007 Posts: 8

I have finally let go, as of yesterday after two years of holding on trying to figure it all out and reaching out, and now I am leaving it in God's hand.
I don't know what I feel and I don't know what I want at this point in my life.....I do know that I do trust the Lord, and what ever his will is.... so be it. My children are actually adults now they are 20 and 21. Although they think it is best that I don't get back with their father, they have pulled away from me. They don't follow the Lord either. THey all thought I was crazy, for serving a God I couldn't see. So I am now tired of reaching out to them, and getting nothing but heartache from them. They are also in the lords hands. I am tired of them only calling me when they need money or a ride, but can't call me or see me during holidays. I may sound cruel, but I am so sick and tired of being used and abused. I want to move on with my life, but I don't know where to start, I am praying for guidance from the Lord, I want to be where ever he wants me to be and do what ever he wants me to do. I am no longer living my life for a man or children who don't appreciate, anything. I have alot of dreams and goals, I pray for God's favor and blessing. Thank you for sharing and encouragement. God bless you, and know that I too am praying for you .

FaithHopeJoy · Full Member Joined: 25 Jun 2007 Posts: 100

God's Child

Your latest post reads:

GOD's child · Newbie Joined: 21 Oct 2007 Posts: 8

Faithhopejoy,
Thank you for your post.
I want to thank everyone here on this forum for your prayers, support,and encouragement.
I want nothing more than for my marriage to be restored, I also posted if it is God's will and what ever God's will is.... so be it.

secured · Full Member Joined: 30 Jan 2008 Posts: 113

Carol,

You had said in a previous post that your children believed you to be crazy for serving a God you couldn't see. What better way to show them how real God is, especially in your life. People don't understand God's ways. When they see us at peace when things around us are so messed up, they notice. Does that mean we don't still hurt in our circumstances, no. It does mean, however that we are able to control (only with God's help) our thoughts and actions and not get mired down into despair. God will equip you with whatever you need to conquer all the different feelings you are having right now. I understand the not knowing what to do with yourself. What worked for me was to not do anything out of anger or without thought. Wait on God. He definitely will give you guidance. Be patient. Right now you need to take care of yourself. My way is to get a swedish massage. Very Happy

Talk about getting relaxed. A pedicure is wonderful too. Go on a mini vacation or better yet a long one. Anything to get away for awhile. Believe me, it's good for the soul as well as the mind and body. Just something for you. There's when you can really get a one on one with God. Our minds have to rest at times from all the turmoil.

All of us here understand your tiredness. Your trying to figure it all out. That's where I am at, in my journey. I believe God allows us to work through the stages of our grief (which can be many) but expects us to listen to Him, to obey Him. It's hard sometimes to do what He asks but things turn out so much better when we do. I had always said that if I ever found out that my H. had treated me with disrepect (in any way), I'd get rid of him fast. Well? Here I sit, staying in a marriage where my H has committed such unspeakable acts of betrayal. I can leave and it would be biblical for me to do so. I know God doesn't want me to. His Word tells me not to. It's not easy, so I lean on Him. Each day has its stumbling blocks but they're getting a little easier to step over. All this being said to say, that I see my marriage, my husband and myself differently now. I am a stronger person than I ever thought I could be. My husband is now the husband he should be. My marriage is one that God has wanted me to have all along. He has blessed my staying in a usually hopeless situation. God will bless you. Do what He ask of you. Tough at times, oh yeah! I just had to remember He sees our path ahead. He knows what's best for us. We've just got to not get in His way because of our hurting and our pride.

I tend to be long winded with my posts. Smile

I pray you have a good day today, Carol. Ask for His strength. Be prepared though, His strength is quite strong. Believe me! Very Happy

Smile -RJ-

FaithHopeJoy · Full Member Joined: 25 Jun 2007 Posts: 100

God bless you, RJ Smile

You said something today that really helped me work through a dark valley moment:

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